disappointed...L my friend

as salam n afternoon guys..

today entry aq nk cta sglanya...smuanya..i just had a friend n i called that person as L..nk dijadikn cta L ni scra xlngsung dh jd cm my best buddy la..dlm claz sesma, kuar hang out, n every thing sesma..but nth npa tetba rni nk dijadikan cita aq "trtgk" networking dy ***********..then aq trfikir..L ni cuma gunakn aq tuk kpntingn peribadi dy..sush bru igt kwan..bla senang??hermm..nth la..i just try to be L's friend but L refuse me to do that..tp bla tgk blik apa y dy post 6pk sgt smua tu..bkn aq nk mnta dy nan aq,but i won't be L's puppy and shadow..ikut smua khndak dy n always there if L ada mslah..smua uhh wat aq trfikir sejenak..mmg asa sakit hati n asa cm aq cuma hamba abdi dy..but.....nth la..like just i said on my FB "i'm so tired waiting n keep waiting..just like a slave for u..it should be enough"nth la..hnya tuhan y tau perr aq asa skunk..everybody had told me already about L..tp aq x amk ksah sbb dy kwan aq..but now i'm just realize..L bkn la ikhlas slma ni..dy cuma gunakn aq dgn memanfaatkan aq sbgai bhan tuk dy dpat anything if dy xpg claz or xfham paper...bkn nk mngungkit tp cuma terkilan..tersendap dengan apa y L dh wat pada aq..nth la..tp apa dy wat dh wat aq 6pk spa dy y skunk..mungkin lau aq tnya dy xkn ngaku tp dr perbuatan dy aq ckup kenal perilaku itu..slama ni aq diam, aq telan..tp skunk aq dh x blh lg..aq kna fkir msa dpan aq sndri lak..bkn dy jerr..lau dlu yerr..aq ngaku y aq mmg amk berat sal L ni..apa jerr aq info kan kat dy..smpai dh cm PA dy lak..tp skunk aq brtekad tuk dri aq sendiri..smpai bila aq nk pamper dy???L x amk quiz, dy slahkn aq sbb x inform..claz btal pun L slah kn aq sbb xckp awl2..kna submit assgnmnt pun L mrah aq sbb x bg tau..kna wat group work unn L slh kan aq sbb dy tduh aq tpu..nth la..that so many things that u do to me n i just forgive and forget..but now i realize that u won't appreciate what had i done with u..help u by doing ur assignment..accompany u while study for quiz n exam..smua uhh L xpnh nk hargai aq..sia2 jerr smua uhh..L xpnah mention thanks sbb tlg dy directly or indirectly..mungkin dy terlalu ego..or mungkin dy anggp tu semua xda pape..nth la.. :(

ps= if u read this entry L, i hope that u will realize that friend in laughter wouldn't be a friend in sadness..thanks for everything..